I'm just so unhappy
What the hell happened to me? I loved my job, my husband, my life. Now things are just shit. I have no motivation at work at all, nothing. I do the bare minimum to get by without being called out for bad work. This is so not me, I have always worked, and I highly value work ethic. I take pride in a job well done, and just hard work in and of itself. My personal life is just as pathetic. I don't even know who my husband is anymore. I know that I'm not any fun to be around. He's gone all the time. He makes up excuses to not be here. It makes me sad, not so much for me, but the kids. They miss him mightily. We are so disfunctional, pretend that nothing is wrong when we are together. I just can't do it anymore. I'm so unhappy with everything. I just want to leave, but for the kids, I'd be gone already. My husband is not a bad guy, but he's a stranger now. We definitely don't have each other's best interests at heart, we're both looking out for #1 without a thought to the other person. Ugh. I'm going to call for a therapist reference tomorrow.